Last Updated on: 3rd January 2019, 09:26 am
This year has put my faith into test and so far, this is (as of now) the worst year of my life. I don’t want to sugarcoat anything like what other people do- this year almost killed my true self. This year might be what mid-twenties like me are experiencing – a quarter life crisis.
- A Year of Travel
Despite the nightmare 2017 brought, me and my family had traveled to the farthest island we’ve been to in the Philippines: Mindanao. We went to not just one, but three top destinations: Camiguin Island, Bukidnon and Cagayan De Oro. What’s special about this trip is aside from the adventures we’ve experienced, i got to cross-out river rafting off my bucketlist! That trip made me more proud to be Pinoy and that there’s so much more to see in my country. #ItsMoreFunInThePhilippines
- A Year of Struggle
My career life in the past 3 years has never been good to me, and my 2-year stay in my second job ended in a nightmare because of one hasty decision. I saw it coming and after that, I was just like a lost sheep -nowhere to go.
Somehow, that experience became a blessing in disguise because finally my parents understood what I really want in life and that corporate job is not for me. I was given a second chance in a form of a new job, however, God is telling me otherwise – this new job is my last reminder, that corporate job ( a secretarial position, to be exact) is not the one for me and I need to pursue what I really want – Graphic Design or anything that is related to art. Like what the famous quote says,
If Opportunity Doesn’t Knock, Build A Door.
- A Year Of Healing
Being lost, rejected, shamed and disheartened all at the same time almost killed my faith in my myself, everything, even in God. During those times I’ve felt down, I stopped praying because I can’t seem to know the reason why God is letting this all happen to me. Don’t I deserve a job that is right for me? The one that I will really love? It was then that I realized that the only thing that is stopping me to reach my dreams is none other than myself. I was a coward – I didn’t fight for what I want in the first place and I always think what people expect me to be – most especially from my parents. The sad thing is, I let it all happen. I gave up on myself.
And now I’m picking myself up and I know that the fight is not yet over. God has already made a way – my parents finally understood me, my friends who are very supportive of my decision and I’ve been saving up money for my Graphic Design course next year. I realized that I need to let go everything that is pulling me down – my current job, my insecurities, my past – in order to fly.
2017 might be the “Dark Ages” of my life, but I promise that 2018 would be the start of my “Enlightenment”. Thank you 2017 for all those heartaches because it made me stronger, wiser and braver. I’ve been through worse – what’s there to be afraid of?
shianai says
Always remember that dark moments are preparing you for better days. I’ve been there also. Keep your optimism, 2018 will be a year of breakthroughs! 🙂
Crizelda Nicolas says
Thank you for this message shianai! I really hope 2018 would be a good year. 🙂