Recovering

5 months have passed since I left my previous job at makati and I’m slowly getting up,  which honestly is difficult for me. Moving to a new place and meeting new people is surely not easy because you got to start all over again. The worst part is, I’m afraid that what happened to me in my previous job would happen all over again because I’m still stuck in the job that i really hate : a secretarial position.

My life since college has been difficult for me – i didn’t like my course which is psychology, my first job was a nightmare and so does my second job. Now’s my third job and i realized something – that corporate life is not really for me.

What i really want is designing or something that would involve music – a career that I could express my talents, the real me. Sadly, I can’t find a job that’s really for me because my course is tied to either as a psychiatrist or in an industrial setting. I’m really confused right now whether i would pursue studying graphic design because I’m not getting any younger, i need to be in right track  now.

I’m disappointed at how things turn out however, i realized that God is really making things happen. My first goal this 2017 was to transfer to a near workplace with a higher salary and fortunately, it happened 🙂 The second goal is what i need to work out right now – to study graphic design and maybe use my designing skills here in blogging or have a part time job online. After that, my third goal is to be a graphic designer or a layout designer and that’s the time I would finally leave this stressful, robotic job.

I remembered what my dad told me after relating to me the story of my tita which currently resides in Canada. My tita had a difficult life before she and her family moved to Canada. They lived first in her husband’s home and she and his family are not in good terms because his family always depends on them, to the extent that whenever they would decline their request, they would get angry.

My dad said that if that didn’t happen, maybe she won’t think of leaving the country and settle in Canada. He added that sometimes, all those hardships that we faced in life triggers us to be a better person and to strive for a better life. I realized that maybe that’s what God is trying to say – i need to leave this kind of job because it’s not doing good for me. Maybe i need to change my motto right now. Instead of “Good things comes to those who wait”, i’ll change it to “Good things come to those who hustle.”

I’m still fighting and i know i can do this. I’ve been through many shit , how come i can’t survive this one?

If opportunity doesn’t knock, build a door.